So this weekend my Husband and I are invited to 2 different weddings, both of which have the receptions at the same place in 2 different banquet rooms.
Sounds like fun doesn't it?
It would sound like fun to me but being around a large group of people, much less two large groups, just isn't my cup of tea right now. None of my cloths fit....I've gone from a size 6 to maybe a 4 or smaller. Dancing is certainly not on my card (that is unless you call all of the scratching that I'm doing some kind of new dance move!) and what the hell would I do with my hair. I look like shit and I can't stand seeing that in other people's eye's when they look at me.
By the way, no it's not my imagination! I know what I looked like before (which wasn't the greatest to begin with) and I know what I look like now.
It's not about vanity either, it's about how it makes me feel and it makes feel pitiful. I hate that. It's just not who I am.
I asked my beautiful Husband to please go without me. Thankfully he's very understanding and doesn't give me a hard time, even though I know this must be hard on him too since he has to answer everyones questions about where I am.
In a few months this will be over, I'll be out of my tx prison and life can get back to normal again. I'll make it up to him.
For now I just can't help it. It sucks big time, but life will just have to go on without me for a little while longer.....
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Life and times of Dealing with a Dragon named Hep C
I found that Hep C has a nick name.
The Sleeping Dragon.
It's fitting.... Strange thing is that I've always loved Dragons.
I guess I never could have imagined that I'd have one of my own.
About Me
- Laurie
- I'm a 42 year old Mother of 5. 3 of my own and 2 of my Husbands. My 3 are 13, 17 and 21. His are 22 and 26. We have 3 boys and 2 girls. In my life I've had 17 surgeries, a tatoo and a blood transfussion. So your guess is as good as mine as to where I contracted Hep C. I do not believe it was from the tat. The gentleman that did the art was very careful with sterile tools. But who knows. I was diagnosed with Hep C on March 22, 2007. Geno type 1b with a viral load of almost 5 million. And now I turn the corner and yet a new path lay ahead of me...... A new Journey begins
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2 comments:
You were beautiful before you started treatment, you are beautiful now and you'll be beautiful when this is over. But you do need to avoid germy people, so it's a shame you have to miss this - it really sounds like fun - comparing the food, flowers, etc. at both receptions! Oh well, good luck with you shot tonight - you're one step closer to the end.
Thanks Iris
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