I woke up late this morning. It's hard to get out of bed.
Yesterday turned to shit. I spent most of the day nauseous and spent a few times running for the bathroom. I hate that at work because I never know if people can hear me! lol
Today Nurse Sandy should be back in the office. I'll call her to get a different script for A.D.'s
Today is going to be better....damn it! I wake up every morning with the outlook that the day will get better. It doesn't usually work....but I keep waking up and trying. I know it could be worst. It's been worst.
So much work at trying to be positive. It's getting hard when there are so many days of feeling this way.
I paste the stupid smile on my face and try to pretend that everything is just ducky, even though Ducky has deserted me lately.
I hate living in a world of Nausea and Fatigue. I'm still hoping that my body will adjust to all of these drugs a little bit better. It's just very hard.
Other than still feeling a bit washed out and wanting to sleep a couple more hours, waking up this morning I don't feel too terrible. It's funny how I wind up taking inventory of what is bothering me when I wake up. I should just throw that out the window because everything changes from one hour to the other.
Take yesterday for instance, I woke up feeling almost like I do right now. As the morning went on I became more and more nauseous and fatigued. Back and forth to the bathroom. By the time I got home I wound up in the bathroom one more time and then began feeling better. By 7pm I started feeling very good.
It's just too unpredictable.
Yet I still wake up this morning and cling to the positive.
Today will be a good day.
Today I will feel good all day.
My fingers are crossed.
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The tx beats you down as time goes by. As you know, it ain't no fun. Only those who have experienced it can appreciate what you're going through. I guess that puts us in an elite group, we fought the dragon and we've won. I've been 6 days off and I'm at about 80%. My memory has come back and I'm able to do things again. Your Ducky flew to Sacto and lives with me. Looking forward to my trip, see you soon T
Try to be nicer to yourself. When your body wants to rest, let it rest without guilt. If you need to throw-up, don't worry about people hearing it. If you could just get this nausea under control, I think things would go a lot easier. I'm going to let Terry judge whether you're eating enough, by how thin you are. Coffee is NOT a complete well balanced breakfast! Take care.
Terry,
This "Elite Group" really teaches you how to appreciate what feeling good is all about!
80% after 6 days! Wow that's awesome and inspiring! You must feel like a new man! :)
It's going to be a blast to see you!
((Hugs))
Iris,
I try to be nice to myself....but myself can't seem to be nice to me! lol
I think your right about the nausea. If I could just get rid of it I know I'd feel brand new!
Too thin...I know I'm too thin. The weight will come back once I get rid of the nausea.....
Love you too.
((Hugs))
Laurie
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