A need for Education

My friend "Uncertain" went to the Dentist and he acted like an Ass towards with her HCV.

I find it amazing how people react to this virus. It almost feels like a double whammy.

I get the feeling that some people look at me as though I have a Horrible virus that is something that they may need to get tested for because they've known me for a while.....or they look at me differently because they saw a T.V. show like Heartland or E.R. . Someone on the show was a drug addict and had HCV. On one episode the Doctor even said "Oh that figures....HCV is a good sign of a drug addict".

I don't get that feeling from everyone.....but I do from some.

I know it's not just in my head.....I'm just waiting to see how people disappear from my life to avoid being around me. I wish there was a way to teach people about this virus....

HCV doesn't seem to be very popular in this area. Even my own Family Doctor, who has been a doctor here for decades, told me that he'll be following my treatment and learning as we go because he's never had a patient with HCV before. He treats me well.....he's come to my rescue many times over the past years. I wish I could just turn him into a specialist and have him treat me.

But like I said, there's no HCV education here. lol....just me.

I hate the feeling of trying to explain that I can't pass this little dragon on just by hangin' out with people. And I worry a lot about people who think that I may give it to them by Bar tending or working around the bar.

I also sooooo much hate the judgement that people may make towards the idea that many people have HCV through drug addiction. I guess I hate it more because most of the people who are around me know that my ex-husband was a major drug dealer in this area. He was probably dealing from the day that we met. Took me a while to find out and by then he had no intention on stopping. He was addicted to not only the drugs but to game of dealing. He's now waiting to be sentenced on Federal Charges handed down by a Grand Jury for his Dealing.

I on the other hand never was a drug addict. Never stuck a needle into my body. As far as I know.....neither did he. He snorted coke by the tons. Not to mention that I heard he tested negative.

My HCV either had to have come from one of my 17 surgeries or a blood transfusion after the birth of my son. But still.... I carry my ex's guilt.

What I find most ironic is that I am now faced with doing something that I never thought I'd have to do.....I now have to inject something into my body. I don't know how I'll be able to do that. I'm not squeamish....I just don't know if I can do it to myself.

Funny thing is, I have a diabetic cat that I have to inject insulin into twice a day. Once in the morning and once in the evening. (He got diabetes from being a stray and eating whatever he could where ever he could get it.)

He even reminds me when it's time by coming to me and gently pawing at my hair or face or just laying on me and starring. I grab the needle, the insulin and a treat and he comes running. Pull up the skin on his neck and he Lay's down for his shot. Never even a peep out of him. It's become routine for him.

His name is Jack and he's a brave little boy! He's also the most incredible animal I've ever known. So Smart, gentle and so loving!

I know that when it's time I'll have to deal with injecting myself.....right now until I'm faced with it....I just can't imagine. LOL....Jimmy said he'll do it for me if I can't!

I wonder if I can have a treat for getting injected....