Saturday, October 31, 2009

Forgive me

I haven't been to my blog for months....and I've been reminded by a friend that I never came back here to post how my treatment turned out.

First of all my appologies.

I am cleared of the virus!! WooHoo!! I did make it. So many of us didn't.....

The road back to recovery from tx was slow going. My Thyroid has been the hardest hit but just like my trial doctor said, it's slowly coming back around. After tx my thyroid went Hyper and then about 2 months later it went Hypo. I began taking thyroid replacement and around 3 months later my thyroid went hyper again. I stopped the replacement drug and now I think it might be ok.....I just had bloodwork on thursday and I haven't heard back yet...but I feel good so I'm thinking it'll be good.

It's a funny thing about recovery....once tx stopped I just wanted to get away from it. It consumed so much of my life for a year and a half, I just needed my life back. Selfish...I know...but we all have just one life to live and when you have an experience like this you start to realize just how much each day really means to you and you begin to focus on the day you have and try to forget about those that you lost.

It may not make sense...I know....

Life today is beautiful. Hard work is now something I enjoy. My play time is taken up by hot glass and lampwork glass. (check out JimChristmanArtGlass.com)

And I feel damn good. Even my hair has grown back in every place that it counts. lol it's funny but kinda nice....my hair has yet to return to my underarms! I haven't shaved there for over a year.

Ok...so here's the end of my blog.......

If you come here looking for answers....I don't really have any. I have written in this blog my experiences. But what I went through may not be the same for you.

We are all different.

I began this little journey scared, confused and even though I had the love and support of an incrediable Husband, family and friends.....I still felt all alone and the drugs played with that right up until I kissed them goodbye.

I came here online searching for answers and an education. What I found where friends. Beautiful wonderful friends who taught me and showed me the way to survive this tx.

If you come here looking for an education, what you will find are my experiences. But one more thing that you'll find is a piece of my heart and a year and a half of my life. I write it, in part for my own sanity....and I write it in part for you.

You will learn that you are stronger than you ever thought you could be.....

You will find that you have people who love you and will support you in ways you never thought they could.

You will find new friends through this who will change your life forever and you will remember them forever.....

Thank you my friends. Your love carried me though the dark tunnel and I made it into the sunshine.

God Bless you and Keep you.

All My Love
Laurie

4 comments:

Dorene said...

Dear Lori, so happy to hear you are still UND, I am very happy for you, wish you all the best.
I lost my job in Aug, they felt I was not getting better nor was I going to. While I was not happy about it, I adjusted and came to see that they were right, I am only good for about 6 hours a day and then I am exhausted, the treatment really destroyed my health. If I had not relapsed that would be a different story
I wish you all the best
Love
Dorene

LChrstmn said...

Dorene,

I am so sorry.

Have they come up aith any ideas to pull you out of this?

There must be something that they can do to at least make life more bareable for you.

Have you check into Dissability? I can't imagine them not giving you at least a partial disability.

Hang in there lady!

Love
Laurie

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to say hi. I hope you are continuing to do well. I probably will not remember my password as I have not used it in close to a year. Just thought I would check in, see how you are.
I am waiting for another stronger treatment in 2011
I hope that you and Jimmy are doing well. I am feeling much better than I was last year this time so that is good
Dorene

Dorene said...

Laurie, I am coming back here to say I am finally SVR. I finished the Incivek, Peg Riba 18 months ago and am finally over it.
I hope you and Jimmy continue to do well.
I think of you often
Dorene